“A true friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.”

What the hell? She just automatically thinks I don't care, like somehow, someway I've almost erased her? I don't get it. She expects ME to talk to her first, I always have. Since day one. Not once has she ever said 'Hello' to me first. No. Yet when I suddenly stop she just thinks I don't care? How does she think that makes me feel when I have to talk to her, and never her to me. May sound spoilt and stupid, but I don't understand her anymore.
She didn't even say Happy Birthday. That's 2 words. I don't expect much. Maybe I do. Maybe I expect her to drop at my feet and apologise and shower me with 'love'. But 2 words, that's all. Unless she forgot. She probably did since I'm easy to forget, too easy infact.
"I do not know what the fúck is your deal. You care, you don't? Or maybe you ARE too young to understand. No mails, no nothing? I have much more important things to deal with than other people, still I managed to find some time for you. I wonder, why's that. No, I REALLY wonder, because I'm loosing interest."
That's what she put. Isn't she amazing and sweet? :) No. She hurt me. She doesn't say ANYTHING to me, probably wrote it there knowing I wont read it. But I did. I probably am too young to understand. But I can't understand something that isn't explained. Talk to ME. Stop avoiding me. Just because you haven't been online, nor have I mailed you doesn't mean I don't care. I might as well ignore you the way you're acting.

Why is it so hard for me to accept people have a social life?

CLICK IT.

Crying's good for you?

I'm crying now and I can't explain why to anyone. I so badly want to express it to everyone but I can't. My eyes are all blurry and so's the keyboard (if I make mistakes that's why). My tea's beside me and I can't eat it. I feel sick.. I'm so damn angry. I want to talk to someone, but I can't. Not like last time. I don't want to move away from her but at the same time I want too. I can't deal with her anymore.. If I got a knife and stabbed myself she wouldn't care. I might as well do it.. I know she wants me too.

Gaaaah.

My sister is hitting my cat with a stick. Would you just let her do it and say nothing? I doubt it. So I was shouting at her saying "NO! That's naughty.. STOP IT". Then my mother decides to shout at me. Ha. "You say nothing to her all day, so stop shouting at her". So, I said "Fine, I'll just let her hit the cat with a stick". In her self centered tone she said "I'll decide what I do thank you very much". For one I didn't say what she was doing/not doing.

The words in bold are the emphasis she put on them..

Writing, stories.. based on fact?

I want to write, about something that's life changing. But I doubt I'd think of anything, not now.